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03/07/2008: "so"

mood: thoughtful

So I work for a individually owned mom and pop type organic food store. Im not a veggie or a vegan but I do like organic foods. There are good things about working in a place like that, its a lot more personal, the owners take an interest in who you are and its a very close knit team. There are also bad things. Taking time off is harder. I work there as an Asst mgr (just means I carry keys and can count drawers lol) along with one other asst mgr who only works days, my sister and one other girl. Between the four of us and our boss we are the only 5 people working that store 12 hours a day 7 days a week (well 5 hours on sunday). Another bad thing is that when the store may or may not be having trouble everyone knows it. My boss is very vocal about the fact that every dime he has is invested in the store and that if for some reason it fails he will be broke, divorced and homeless cause his wife will leave him - he says this all in jest but he is somewhat serious. And it is serious and probably very nerve-wracking.

Well today my boss seemed kind of ... emo is really the only word I can think of. I think he just had a lot on his mind and maybe some tough decisions to make. His wife (and he) wants to have kids and they arent getting any younger. She was pretty much told if you are going to have kids you better have them now. Now my boss didnt say this directly but all of his mannerisms today just suggest that he may have to give some serious thought to giving up the store. Opening a store like this has always been a dream of his and yeah it has its ups and downs but things are going okay - i think.

all day i kept thinking this: at what point does it become important/necessary to give up something you want for the sake of someone else? Now my boss could sell his store and probably see a return on his investment. but he would be giving up the idea (for now) of owning the store. But couldnt you also say he is trading in one dream for another? does that seem fair?