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03/29/2008: "none"

I have been having a lot of nightmares lately, stressed over work, family. So I know thats why its just that when I wake up my heart is racing and whatever emotion that was going on in the dream is just so overwhelming. And sometimes I dont wake up right away, I mean my brain will wake up but my body is still asleep and I am unable to move. That was last night twice. Its just frustrating because I wake up in the morning and just feel ....

I dont know I just wish - I used to have a friend that no matter the time of day or night I knew I could talk to and now its just - well he no longer has a phone, hes never available online and honestly hes just not the same friend he used to be. We have been friends for a long time so change is expected, I just miss that part sometimes.