When I was younger, I used to have a habit I wish I had kept up with. Every night before I went to sleep I would take 15, sometimes 30 minutes to write half a page or more before I went to bed. Sometimes it was about whatever went on during the day. Other times it was whatever thought happened to be rolling around in my high-school brain at the time. I’m not sure why I got out of the habit but I wish I had kept up with it. I always keep a journal/diary but don’t write in it as often as I would’ve liked. I have some of my old journals with me and they span from sophomore year of high school until well now.
I always wanted to have blank journals, I’m not sure why. I guess I didn’t want to be restricted by the lines or I wanted the book to feel more sacred than a simple lined book. I also preferred covers that were well pretty. My current journal has a fabric cover with beautiful embroidered flowers and leafy green swirls.
I’ve also had other blog incarnations. Pitas, Live Journal, even myspace all which have bit digital dust. There was even a blog on my other personal site that I abandoned but may get resurrected. My brain is a flurry of activity that my body cant possibly keep up with.
I wish I could get back in that old habit. Maybe not writing everyday, but definitely more often than I do. Currently my last entry in my journal was a probably a couple of months ago. And I don’t write here as I would in my journal but sometimes I think I would/should. I guess it all really depends on the direction I want to go with this site. But that’s the problem isn’t it? I want a direction I’m just not sure what it is yet. I already decided to separate most cooking from this space (only because I think it would take over if I let it!).
For now I’ll just write. Let time figure it out for me. I have a few ideas in mind but I don’t have the, well I guess it’s the confidence to start them. That and I haven’t gotten into good habit of writing for this space.
What’s to come? I’ve given up on trying to figure that out. I’m a planner without a plan at the moment. And I guess that will have to be alright.